Today is the first day of the rest. . . . .

So, part online diary, part narcissistic masturbation, I have decided to start a blog. I am not entirely sure what I will write here. Some of my culinary exploits will make it here as well as various aspects of my life or maybe just things I want to rant about at that particular moment in time.

Currently my thoughts are on God. Is there a God? I am just not sure. To be clear, I am also not sure there isn't one, but God and I are not exactly close friends. I almost think I believe in Fate or Destiny more than I believe in God. There is something magical about the peace and community that religion can create when it is inclusive and non-judgmental, but I haven't been able to find that for myself. I always feel like an outsider looking in at the family I want to be a part of but can't.

It has been suggested that I need to find a higher purpose (not necessarily God, her/himself) to devote myself to so that I can move a bit away from worrying about being the outsider and make myself the insider. I am not sure where to start with that so for now, I am moving along day-to-day.

At 38, I had hoped to have a bit more of this figured out. That said, my life is quite good and perhaps that is enough.

I am also on the hunt for a good recipe for goat meat, a stew that could be, but doesn't have to be a curry. There are several on the web but I can't quite figure out which one to start with.